heh. It often seems like that, doesn't it?
But ... I'm currently reading
"Chasing New Horizons" by Alan Stern and David Grinspoon. This is a documentary about the New Horizons mission to explore Pluto.
New Horizons was specifically scaled to fit an acceptable budget in order to get funding approval... It was the least expensive outer-Solar System exploratory mission ever at the time of its design and proposal. That bargain basement price on the proposal in today's US dollars amounted to $750,000,000.00 ...!!!
I started my career post-college at NASA's Jet Propulsion Laboratory. Now past the end of my career, there are moment when I wonder if I did the right thing ... I chose to leave JPL after four years and went into the computer industry, ran my own business as a computer consultant and another business as a photographer. It was a wonderful, satisfying career ... but. As I reflect: I loved working on exploratory missions into space, on the development of space craft and instruments in imaging science, and the camaraderie of so many bright, crazy people working together, against the odds, in the hope of achieving something beyond the everyday ... It was thrilling, hard, and supremely satisfying—and I will never forget it.
We must all make our choices.

I have no regrets, just wistful
what-ifs...
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